When your heart hurts so much you wish you could tear it out of your chest.
When you are so happy you skip down the street singing Jesus Loves me at the top of your lungs.
When you try to hide. or try to run.
When you simply walk through life just trying to breathe.
When you can't stop smiling like a fool.
When your sad.
When your lonely.
When your content.
When your overwhelmed.
When you do wrong.
When you do right.
God is there.
God is always, always there.
Loving you.
Romancing you.
Holding you.
And it seems, when you absolutely do not want him there.
He's there anyway.
Bringing Truth.
Bringing Light.
Bringing Beauty
Bringing Life.
And, since he's God.
The more we run, the more we hide, the more He seeks.
You can't run away from God.
That's not how it works.
And God does not, He does not run away from you.
He loves you.
He wants you.
He wants your heart to be his.
But your scared.
Terrified even.
Because, what if God turns on you?
What if He gets angry.
Or frustrated.
Or impatient.
What if you fail?
Will God leave you?
Will he leave you for someone else?
Someone else who can be you better.
Someone who is perfect, whole and beautiful.
Not someone who has struggles, someone who is dark, and twisty.
Why would God want someone like you?
And then that part, where He brings truth, it pours into your soul like a rainstorm in a desert.
It washes away the pain, the hurt, and the doubt.
And you get it.
For a brief moment you get it.
He loves you. He wants you. He needs you.
You are imperfect, your heart is dark and twisted, and so utterly human.
And he wants you that way. He loves you that way.
God's grace is not fickle.
He does not pick and choose who to bestow his grace upon.
It is indescribable. Beautiful.
And it's yours.
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