Glass Houses

This blog post is in response to some incredible responses to something on homosexuality on a friends facebook. I so respect and value everyone's opinion. Here's mine ha ha ha.  Ok. So I am in a very sarcastic witty mood, and I'm also exhausted, so forgive me some rabbit trails here. I think that really, the real question asked by the church and its followers is this: Is homosexuality wrong? To the people that have black and white opinions, the answer is a simple yes or no. To the gray people like me, the fence sitters, the people that the black and white want to shove off the fence and beat with sticks in order to get a real answer, it's not so simple. Something that God has been really talking to me about lately is people's relationship with him. Something that BLEW my mind, but probably comes as no surprise to anyone else is that every single person on this earth who wants to, has a relationship with him. And that, the details and the depth of this relationship is revealed only to us. Let me explain, my relationship with God is like no one else's. Why? Because every single person is fearfully and wonderfully made, but there is no carbon copy, we are not all the same, every single one of us is drastically different than another. Therefore there is no way that I am in ANY position to judge another person because of what their relationship with God looks like. Every single person on this earth lives in the same flippin glass house! We ALL sin. All of us without question are horrid, icky, dark, twisted creatures that really, have no right to inhabit this earth with all the arrogance of immortality. However, there is one redeeming factor in this whole sticky situation, God. It is clear in the Bible that before Jesus, God was not a merciful judge. He made cutthroat decisions in order to protect his people, and if they disobeyed him, look out. But Jesus changed things. Jesus brought the redemption and forgiveness and all the warm mushy feelings. Jesus literally, literally paid for our sins with his blood. He stood between us and the greatest being of all time and said, I will pay for your sins so that you are as white as snow when you enter the kingdom of Heaven. So. All this is going somewhere I promise. In regards to the Church, the Bible, God, Jesus, the Holy Spirit and homosexuality the church and society could literally argue about this until we are blue in the face, run out of air, die and go to Heaven to find out the real answer only to realize that IT DOESN'T BLOODY MATTER. We all have different opinions and statements and ideas, but at the end of the day what really matters to you? Every single one of us has a different relationship with God, that no one else on this earth could even begin to comprehend. Only you and God know what really goes on there, it is a tremendously private and intimate thing, to have a relationship with the God of the universe. So. As I said before, we ALL live in the glass house. We have NO right to throw stones. We ALL sin. There is NO difference between sins, between hating your enemy and a girl marrying and living with another girl. I'm sorry, but what this whole argument comes down to, is the arrogance of mankind. We all think we are right! We all think that so and so can't possibly be living in a right relationship with God because they are doing such and such. HOW THE HELL DO WE KNOW? What really needs to happen is that we need to shut our mouths, and examine our own hearts, and examine our own relationship with God. If the church stopped for ONE WHOLE MINUTE to be quiet and brutally honest it would see how far off the tracks it has tumbled. And you know what, this train has been led off the tracks by well meaning people who followed the wrong voice. It can happen to every single one of us, no one is immune. And for the people like me, who are a little more than put out at the way the church has treated other human beings, specifically homosexuals in this conversation, also need to take a step back. We can become so immersed in feelings and sentiments and justice that we no longer hear God's voice. It has happened to me, lot's. Some of my closest and greatest friends happen to be gay, and personally I feel ill at the way they view the church. But that doesn't mean that I have the right to throw stones at either party. Despite what I think and feel, I always have to revert back to the only thing that matters, God. We are all entitled to opinions, but the need to shout them from the rooftops in an effort to prove ourselves, and to prove points is quite unnecessary. Who are we to think we know what's best for others? I repeat, no one knows what it's like to be you, to have that relationship with God. No one has the right to judge homosexuals , because in reality they could be closer to God than you are, and in some desperate unknown attempt to prove that your better you have decided to stick your nose up. I go to church. I pray. I I I I I .... when really, basically everything that is an issue on this earth could be fixed if the sentence became: God, grant me the grace not to punch this jerk in the face, God, I'm sorry for punching him in the face, God, God God  God. So, at the end of this long ... I don't know what to even call it... this is what I truly hoped got across: God loves all of us unconditionally, and the relationship we have with him is personal, and it is none of our business to stick our nose into other people's relationship with God. And the second thing I hoped got across is this: Really, in the end gay marriage, and being gay in the first place shouldn't even be an issue, because who are we to even voice an opinion about someone else's life unless invited to do so. This whole thing has gotten past the point of ridiculous. I have literally argued and struggled with God for a LONG time about this issue. And then, I realized, it truly is none of my business. I will love those that need to be loved, pour my heart into those that are suffering and simply live my life. I have no qualms stating that I have no problem with gays, and gay marriage. No problem whatsoever. But the struggle, and the agony that we put ourselves through daily trying to figure out the real answer is quite unnecessary and a waste of time. I know that now. I truly believe that my own heart and salvation is between me and God, and if I so choose I can let others speak into that. And I believe that every other human being has that right. So, I do believe that homosexuality will always be an issue. Some people will continue to fight it till the end of the time. Let's not concern ourselves with that. Let's love instead of getting frustrated over those that don't understand. Let's love the gays, and ignore the bastards who are harping on our shoulders trying to tell us to stop. Let's be examples of light and goodness to the darkest of places. Lay down the weapons we use to fight with other believers, and instead pick up the lanterns and spread the love of God into the darkness.